THINGS I'VE LEARNED IN LIFE

Day 23
[ Things you've learned that school won't teach you]

First off so close to the end! I cannot believe it, so amazing! 31 one days of straight blogging, awesome, awesome! I am definitely however going to have to makeup for all these writing posts for photos posts next I feel.. ;) Let's get into today's post..

Life I learnt will knock you off your base plate to make you realize what you have and to be grateful for what it is that you have. It does this to show you that before you get to home base there's more to life and you have to work really hard at the things you want in life. And it is your duty to be thankful for everything, even the simplest of little things. Also life will throw random curve balls to shake you up to see if what you want is truly what you want and are you truly willing to fight as hard as you can to achieve it. 

Being greener on your own turf is the first thing to look at because what you may think is greener on the other side could completely take you off guard and isn't. I definitely heard people talk about it and never truly got it until I endured it by hearing another persons thoughts. It's surprising what you may think can turn out completely and honestly different from someones thoughts, live, stories etc. Fixing what is on my side is the first step to making my life grow to bountiful things. Comparing my life to that of someone else doesn't help also.. my journey is my journey and no one else.

This life of mine has also taught me that it isn't what others want at the end of the day. It is my life and what I want truly, because at the end of the day I am the one who has to live with the results, nobody else. When figuring out this life and what I want to achieve it's not about taking the safe road because everybody else around me is scared or doesn't think it is a good path etc. I am the one who needs to make myself fulfilled and happy, so that I can say I least tried even if I failed or doesn't work in my favor. At least I tried and there will be no what if or regret. Basically, do what is best for the heart at the time and not other peoples opinions as the ultimate result. Everybody has a purpose in this life. 

My life has taught me to DREAM BIG always, no matter what others say, believe or think about them. If it is something I truly want and I am willing to put in the effort to achieve it then anything can be accomplished with determination. Having ambitions, daily goals and or weekly goals helps you get there. Having those dreams written down hold me accountable for the things I say. And not only does it hold myself accountable but as well actions talk louder than words, so putting everything into play is what gets you the things you want out of life. Life is full of opportunities  it's all about how one chooses to go about it. One can dream and dream but do nothing to attain it or one can do something to make it come to life. Some times dreams are so big as well as scary that if you don't risk it all how will you gain anything? This life isn't about regrets. This life has failures and that's okay, they don't make you less of anything they make you fight harder to wanting to make a point in I'll do anything to be better than the next; even if that means staying later, go that extra mile when I could stop. It's about pushing harder, working harder, giving triple than 100%, it's about crafting my game to be better than the person who is lacking. You got to be one step ahead, and running not chasing things. 

In this life time I have wanted a LOT of things and I have achieved the goals I have set out and wanted in the past up until now. It didn't matter if it was something small or big it counts if you really want it and it means something to you. However, with that comes believing and being positive. Being positive attracts positive. Being negative attracts negative. The certain things that I have attracted into my life is because my attitude and outlook on it. Being positive is what attracts the very ultimate amazing experiences, desires etc. And no one can teach you that but you. Anyone can believe in you and what you want from life, however if you don't believe in you then there's a problem, and so to gain the things one desires believing is a must, a must of yourself. 

These are my things I've learned and I know there is much more to learn in this life of mine, because I haven't learnt everything. I hope you enjoyed!

a rant.. in response thread comments

Day 22
[Rant about something. Get up on your soapbox and tell us how you really feel. (a pet peeve, a current event, a controversial topic, something your husband or roommate or neighbor or boss does that really ticks you off ]

Example taken from Google Thread

Jenni already talked about comments getting a reply and how to do all that jazz, which I had already set up correctly from before. However, the one thing that really annoys me is the fact that I never know if I get a reply from someone when I comment on their blog and it's reply in comments section. I don't get sent an email telling me they responded and honestly I am most likely not going to go back hunting to look for my comment when a WHOLE lot of people left comments. There are those times when you randomly click onto a blog you've never been to and leave a comment which they may have happened to reply to comment in comment section but how are you going to remember who to check back at after you closed your browser? Okay, your history... but if you looked at a LOT of different blogs, sorry but who has time to find where you last commented and what post. It's such an inconvenience and for me it's such an annoying thing because what if they wrote back something good or what if they asked you to email me them in them comments. How am I ever going to know that?! Yes, I could write down all the blogs I visit and the posts I read in which I left a comment but that's a kill joy and also time consuming, not to sound like a bleep. There are comments I have left and I will never know if I got a response or not because it's reply in comments section. I could also click follow by email but why would I want to do that because I am going to get an email every time someone else leaves a comment on this person's post... annoying! Who wants a cluttered inbox that doesn't acknowledge what you had written only. 

This is my little rant, nothing to great or big or anything but I had to mention it, because I have been thinking about it a lot through blogging but even more so lately and it completely sucks the outcome. It sucks because you could have quite possibly gained a blogger friend or something.. who knows?! The other thing that is kinda of a disappointment is that the blogger can reply to your comment quickly but doesn't review your blog and what a shame! Okay, I understand you can have TONS of comments, but if you're going to reply why not check out the blog? If you checked out the blog then mostly like could click on comment-ers email link and email them that you replied. I actually had that happened only ONCE, once, but goes to show not every single person is willing to do that for whatever reason.
Any who..

I hope you all have a fabulous Wednesday! :) 

let's skip down memory lane..

Day 21
[A list of links to your favorite posts in your achieves]

Well today's challenge seems super easy, sort of kinda.. so let me snoop through the past achieves of mine and find some stuff for you all to view! ;) The photo is even down memory lane.. well duh! It's summer, not fall! :p

#.1 OOTD
(outfit post) February 14, 2013

#.2 this kind of love./ our kind of love. (re-edited edition)
(letter to future husband) January 16, 2013

#.3  i promise  (and if you flash your heart, i won't deny it)
(letter to self) February 6, 2012

#4. OOTD
(outfit post) June 25, 2012

#.5 Q&A / more about me.
(Getting to know about me) August 1, 2012  

#.6  Liebster Award
(Nominated for an award) July 18, 2012

I think this is all.. there is so many different posts, WOW! I didn't really realize it until I decided to skim back through. I hope you enjoy these posts that I have selected. 

Have a wonderful day!

a fierce struggle

Day 20
[Get real. Share something you're struggling with right now.]

The thing I am struggling with currently is being stressed out, well feeling suffocated and trapped. This is how I feel when it comes to the subject of school and work lately, okay not even lately for a long while now. You know when you've had so much on your plate that you can't take anymore and you want to break down but don't want to in front of people or to talk about it to people? You have this silent moment alone by yourself late wee early hours of the morning and you just break down crying because you don't know what else to do? Yeah that's how I felt lately recently. It's hard, because yes I talk to my best friends about it or certain things but it goes much deeper. It becomes exhausting along overwhelming and just wanting to break down even more. 

When it comes to the whole thing about school it's all about everybody else and what they think is best. And okay, I get what you want or think but this is all I want to do. I just want to go to school.. I don't see what the issue is. I don't have a boyfriend, I don't go out and party, I don't stay out late or go to the bars (totally not my scene). I can count the times I've gone on my one hand and stuff like that isn't fun for me. I feel out of place and simply put it's not me. I understand I need to move away and what I have to do, but not everybody has every little detail about life figured out. The important details and things yes but the other things that don't matter as much and are things that can get figured out when I am there I am okay with that. Life isn't perfection and I am not trying to make it perfection, because when I have in the past it never works out anyways. Why would it have worked out? I always felt the need to be in control of everything and life doesn't work like that. You can try but life can throw you a curve ball whenever you feel like it even if you tried to prevent a certain situation. I am not trying to do anything but to accomplish my dream. A dream I have had since I was 9 or 10 years old, that's it.. nothing else. I get it, it's not something most people agree with because isn't a  "normal" career path. I tried to do the other path from being pressured and it didn't work out in my favor anyways, so why should I run that course again. I rather go down this path and achieve something I truly, ultimately want and be happy, passionately happy. It sounds so simple me typing it as you read this but I know it's not. I know it's a lot of hard work but if you really want something as bad as you want to succeed then you will succeed. I rather do this and have the chance of failing then never trying to be left with what if? what if? what if? I don't want any regrets.. I don't want any wonders. Yes, I know what I want now and I do not know what is or will happen in the future but I do know there is a far better plan for me than what I have planned for myself. Whatever those plans are that God has I know they will be amazing. It will be trying at times to test if it's truly what I want and if I would give up so easily when it gets tough or stick it through to make a point to achieve whatever it is I want without making up an excuse. I am twenty-five years old, which to me seems old to pursue this yet everybody says its not, however it should matter the age that you are. As long as you're doing what it is you want and love it shouldn't matter about the age. And not everybody's life is the same journey and so I can't compare my life to that of someone else and everything happens when it's suppose to happen at the right time when it's meant for you. I believe it's true because when it's something you want and it's happening it will just flow smoothly and you will see things fit together seamingly unlike before say if you were trying but struggled. It was problem after problem trying to do what it is now that is going fine. I believe if it's working smoothingly for you it's because God feels you are ready to take on this journey. Yes, it's scary of course but a lot of things are scary if you don't even try.. usually the things that scare you turn out to be wonderful marvelous things. All my best friends, close friends want me to attend school and are happy for me. However, if I decided not to go they would be pretty disappointed in me and I know my aunties think I should do it because if I don't now I will never do it. I agree I feel like I have talked about it so long, so so so long that if I push it back anymore I will never do and feel stuck. Who wants to feel stuck? Not me! I want to be HAPPY! I am nervous for this journey a little bit yes, but I am also excited but happy because those who believe in what I want to go to school for know that I will do it and succeed because it is something I am passionate about. Everyone that knows I am going to school has told me they see me doing that, it's just me.. that's just who I am. This is something they know I will work really hard for and not mess up because I really want this.

The hard part is hearing the negative stuff, then breaking down and crying or trying to hold it together to not cry. I don't cry or get mad easily without a reason to be and when I am you know because I am always so laid back to people. Maybe that's a good thing, maybe it's not but some things that people do  seem negative to me and I don't want to worry about certain things that I don't have to. Why should I worry about other people and what they want to do and be negative about it? I see it as it's not my life, they can do whatever I don't need to dwell or talk about it. Maybe that's why I seem laid back to people.. but point is, the last time I cried was when my grandpa was in the hospital and I had to say goodbye. If I have cried anything before that situation it was over school and after that was over school. The people who see me like this know it's a BIG deal for me, this is something I really really want. It's not something.. I think I want, half-heartily want or hey I'll just do this to waste time or and money. It's not, it's something I have wanted to do forever and it's my calling from God for me to pursue. It's my calling because it's all I talked about for years, and years and years since I was a children and I am an adult now and it's still a BIG deal/passion I want to have in my life. I like how some people I have talk to are like you are better than that in the sense of what option I want to do for school and this no sense of doing something shorter when I am capable of better. I agree, this what I want and yes it's probably a high standard or high goal to aim for but I know it WILL, it will be WORTH IT! I just want to be happy and not sad because honestly I always care about other people and their happiness and not my own. This is one thing I just care more about myself for once because I want to feel and be happy. I don't want to be sad honestly and I know this time around it's others that want me to go who are caring about my happiness instead of there own. I am so so so so so grateful and thankful for the support, love and wanting to see me happy as well as want me to be happy. 

This is what I am struggling with that is most important to my heart, and I think I have wrote a lot on it. As for the other topic it's been a struggle also but I feel this is the direction my heart headed so I am going to leave it at this. 

Thank you for reading my blog lately and following my writing entries for each one of these post challenges. I truly appreciate it and those who leave comments, thank you for your encouraging words. I do read all my comments, I just take a while to respond back bare with me because I always reply even if it's not right away. I will be getting back to responses on comments tomorrow. Comments are my #1 priority tomorrow for those awaiting for a while. I am truly sorry for such a long wait. Thank You, Thank You, Thank You!

My 5 favorite

Day 19
[Five of your favorite blogs and what you love about them]

#.1 Meg Courtney Photography

[ - Blog - Facebook Page - Website - Instagram - ]
She is a photographer who takes sun-kissed, spontaneous, enchanted photos. The biggest reason why I love her is that she is such a beautiful,unbelievable source of inspiration. She is not only an inspiration when it comes to her career in photography but also in her blog and what she has to say about life. Another reason that I love her is that she enjoys life, is spontaneous and has fun. I have been addicted-ly following her ever since she took my lifestyle photos back in 2011 of October in Kelowna, Bristish Columbia. What a wonderful adventure that was and what a marvelous individual full of talent. The ability to see someone grow from 2011 up until now 2013 and all the progress is fascinating. She has come a long ways into spine-tingling impressiveness. I am so in love with her sun-kissed photos, they're just so beautiful! I probably seem like a crazy fantanic that I really just need to tone it down some, or a whole lot. I probably scare her, lol.. or maybe not a lol. I watch everything she does on showit as well. She is an inspiration to me of what greatness is and what greatness you can achieve if you allow your self the opportunity to go and get it. She is someone who I want to take my engagement and wedding photos when that time comes for me. Another time I would love for her to take photos for me is when I graduate in two years from college if possible then. I would immensely love if she was able to do that for me. I think the most heart-stirring thing that would be a true dream is to learn from her and to attend a workshop by her if she has one in the near future again that I would be able to attend or even one on one mentoring. She is a marvelous superhuman. Oh and has stunning style! Below is a few of her latest images I love.. 

#2. Sincerely, Jules
[ - Blog - Tumblr - Pinterest - Instagram - ]

I love Jules for her stunning style!! It is out of this world! It doesn't matter if it is a dressed up style or low-key she always knows how to make an outfit drop your shades low and gasp in awe, by the inspiring combinations of items she has put together. This is one fashion blogger that I would love love love love to meet in person, because she seems so cool! I love all her photos on instagram  as well that she shares with her readers, that instagram is a great way to connect by imagery. I love what she always has to post. How I heard of Sincerely, Jules was actually an article from Teen Vogue that I had picked up and she was featured. I went onto my computer typed her blog name and I was instantly hooked! I can't say I have followed her from 2009, day one because I never knew of her. I have however been following her now for a couple of years and I can't get enough of jules! She is so awesome and someone I admire when it comes to style and her marvelous outstanding fashion sense. She's one of my fashion idols when it comes to style. 

#.3 Brizzie Styles
[ - Blog - Facebook Page - Instagram - ]

 Ms. Brizzie Styles I heard about from the lovely Meg Courtney, who I mentioned above! I just clicked onto the link that was posted on her facebook page and there I was. She has such a brilliant sense of style! I love love seeing her strikingly pretty outfits that she puts together, because she is damn good! I love how she's a stylist, because I am a fashion addict and I would love to do that as a job. I would love to pick at her mind and converse all over and about every little thing fashion! I think even a fashion blog post collaboration would be super cool as well, just an idea... thought I would throw it out there. ;) And hello?? Canadians gotta support Canadians, I feel we are outnumbered by you lovely beautiful American bloggers & other world (European) specific bloggers! ;) I think you should check her out, like now and run over there but don't leave without leaving some love on her blog. :)

#.4 Cara Loren +
[ - Blog - Pinterest - Facebook Page - Instagram- ]

The Day Book Blog + 
[ - Blog - Pinterest - Instagram - ]

Love Taza
[ - Blog - Twitter - Instagram - ] 

This was super hard and I couldn't not mention all 3 in one! They all have kid(s) and they all dress remarkably spectacular and share their life with exquisite photos whether its about their style, little one(s), the love of their life, family or travel. I enjoy viewing all their blogs and I wanted to share all of them with you. I am sucker for little kid(s), especially when they have infectious style just like their momma / parents. It makes my heart flutter in awe and pure joy! Click, click, click all three and check them out because they are radiant and their blogs are delightful, graceful and exciting!! 


#5. Fashion Hippie Loves
[ - Blog - Facebook Page - Instagram - ]

Anni aka Fashion Hippie Loves I had found by pure honest fluke. I had never heard of her until recently by the lovely instagram. I clicked on her name and all these sensational outfits that she posted photos of made me fall in love. When I mean fall in love I mean world series kind of love! She puts together dazzling outfits and they make my heart rock in full blown o m g what is she doing to me, she's good! I think she is absolutely heavenly and completely ravishing! I dig her and so should you.. go look go look that's an order!! ;) 

#6. Kristin Leigh
[ - Blog - Oh My My My Series - Facebook Page - Instagram - ]

This is an extra bonus for you guys!! She is a wedding photographer first off. I love Kristen for her writing! She has impressive writing skills! When I mean impressive I mean steller, world class. I have not come across someone who writes this descriptive, this divine, or this magnificent. She is that good in my opinion. The best best part I love of her blog is the Oh My My My series, it is beyond words. It's like a disney fairytale, so enchanted! I think it is that good, that well written and that awe-in love you can feel has though it is so real you're there in the story. Her words make you feel lost in what shes saying and you're not thinking about anything else at the moment. I get so enthusiastic about a new post from that series. Even besides that writing series, the other writing on people itself is out right remarkably beautiful and utterly amazing. She's that good, that genuine and that real. She can tell you a story and a story like nobody's business can she tell. She is someone I would love to meet and learn from when it comes to writing skills, to better the potential that is possible within me. She picks out the greatest quotes at the beginning! I definitely think you should check her out! This my recent most favorite quote she had started with for one of her recent posts "Advice? I don't have advice. Stop aspiring and start writing. If you're writing, you're a writer. Write like you're a goddamn death row inmate and the governor is out of the country and there's no chance for a pardon. Write like you're clinging to the edge of a cliff, white knuckles, on your last breathe, and you've got just one last thing to say, like you're a bird flying over us and you can see everything, and please, for God's sake, tell us something that will save us from ourselves. Take a deep breath and tell us your deepest, darkest secret, so we can wipe our brow and know that we're not alone. Write like you have a message from the king. Or don't. Who knows, maybe you're one of the lucky ones who doesn't have to." [ - Alan Watts] 

Have a lovely day & Happy Long Weekend! =)   

a story from grade five.

Day 18
[Tell a story from your childhood. Dig deep and try to be descriptive about what you remember and how you felt.]

This challenge for today can be a lot of stories, because I have a number of stories and different situations. However, I have one story that is very vivid that has stuck out and came to me right now, so I am just going to write that. 

It's me in school, grade five... I want to say it was yeah I am pretty sure it was that year. We were in class given a task to do and complete. Of course this task we were given to do I remember consisted of coloring and so the teacher wasn't teaching. It was down time to work on whatever it is we were given. I remember I was just doing what I had to and we could get out of our desks to roam to someone near us, to share pencil crayons etc. I remember I got told one of the most meanest things in my life but obviously doesn't top the things that I have heard even as I was growing up and older. However, as a young kid you would never in a million years expect to hear something like this, not even in your wildest dreams.. well at least mine anyways. "When you grow up you're going to be a stripper" that stung. What young kid wants to hear that, and on top of that I was dealing already with other problems and now had that thrown in my face. I felt ugly, ashamed, angry, mad, sad, but more so I dwell-ed on it. I know one of the worst things you could do, but i was a kid and that's a kid thing to do. It may not be healthy but I did it. Of course I kept it inside and didn't say anything to anybody until I got older. When people hear the stories, they are shocked even my parents have heard things and it's so left field but it comes up because of a situation. I am over it, so I am able to talk about it now, but I know for everyone else they can't believe it or understand. I can't begin to understand the magnitude of certain things I have heard in my lifetime. I rather get through them and move on. Like most of my stories or things that have happened to me I never told anyone. I internalized it, that was may coping mechanism for everything. It was like that for everything, because I already had a hundred and one other things that I was going through, dealing with or witnessing. I would keep going back to that, I obviously forgot about it or got over it one or the other. I got bigger meaner things said as I was growing up. This is my story and I am not looking for pity or anything it was just something I wanted to share. I know now days bullying is a big deal and when I went to school it wasn't extreme as it is now how people commit suicide and all these things. I made it through it, it wasn't easy that's for sure and I wish I could tell you it were but it wasn't. I am not even going to say that it was easy to overcome all the bullying that I got. It took me a really long time to let go everything I had inside and was angry about. It has been two years that I have been working on me and it's not something that gets fixed overnight. I know we all wish it was but it isn't. The thing is that I know what it was and still is like to be bullied and I wanted to share my story. Also, it is not something that I agree with. I believe children should get to enjoy life, the glorious beautiful precious life that is given on this earth to be. The reason I never told anyone was because I didn't want the situation to get worse if I told and end up bullied more. Now that I am older that is why I try my hardest to not judge people. I am human and will some times, but for the very most of my life I don't. I don't judge people or say mean things even if I think something else or don't agree because it could just make the situation someone is in worse. I think because I am like that people tell me anything, say anything, even things that are so personal they just spill and we are not even talking about it. I know it's because I don't judge people I've been told. I don't see the point of that at all.. why? You can think someone is fine, and all this great amazing-ness which they can be that but at the same time they can being hurting and some people are good at not exposing that. Why should I add onto a situation they are telling me or even more so probably a number of things that I may not even know is going on. I want to inspire people, I want to bring people up so that's what I stick to as best as I can.

If you are bullied and don't know what to do, hold on.. because your life, is worth it. You destiny is worth it. The love of the higher power/God which ever you believe is worth it. Your beauty, your elegance, your strength, and your wisdom is worth it. You are worth this life. You are too, valuable to give into temptation so that others can get their satisfaction. You're a gift put on this earth to achieve greatness and I want you to achieve your fullest, beyond potential of greatness. You matter.  

A favorite photo

Day 17
[A favorite photo of yourself and why]

I would have to say this is one of my favorite photos of me, because just the sunlight shining through and the smile on my face. A smile that ignites pure happiness, pure joy, pure love, just simple pureness. The stars hanging down from the trees make you believe that anything is possible. The stars are my wishes, my dreams, my story and the sunlight shining through lets you see the beauty of life. The essence of beauty around is a shining glow. This is one of my favorite photos, which was taken 2011 in Kelowna, British Columbia by meg courtney photography and to go directly to her blog click here. I had another favorite photo but I had already posted that photo up on here already in a past post, so this was another favorite selection.