Life's Accessories

Hello Wednesday!

We are in the middle of the week and I actually have a lot of stuff to blog about on here but I wanted to finally come on here and blog this today! 

This post is about stuff that I like for moving away.. huh? Moving away? Yeah I got accepted into school and I am SUPER EXCITED!! It would be for September 2013! It has been a long long dream of mine to go to school for what I want to do since age 9 or 10. It's so crazy surreal, I can't believe everything is happening all so fast! There may be many more of these posts to come in the next couple of months, just a heads uP! Another goal on my 101 list is getting scratched off, and if you didn't see that list I linked it for you to see. :D I have crossed of a couple of things and it's only been January, AWESOME.. Yes, honestly is. grateful, you bet! absolutely! Shows that dreams do come true if you believe, have faith and do the work! 

Here is the post of the cute things I like starting out! These are all from Ikea and I added the links for them in case anyone is curious! 

Have a lovely day!

a. blankets / You can not have enough blankets and especially to cozy up in when cold or watching a show. The color I like its the lighter grey as well as the burgundy is nice also!

b. dishes / I love the color, it just something that grabs your attention with the color. It makes it pop and stand out! 

c. glasses / I actually have liked these glasses for a while to be honest! I just love the little pop of random color on the glass. 

d. cooking utensils / I like these ones just because what you all get and they seem all useful to have for cooking!

e. glasses / I like this cup because it's more match-y with the the dishware set but the other ones do match also, just that this one matches more. And has a cool bubble-y shape as well. 

this kind of love. / our kind of love. (re-edited edition)

Hello Lovelies, 

I know today's post is a repeat post and perhaps even intense for those who never seen or read it the first time. I came across this dear future wife posts randomly last year and was wow, astonished because I've never really thought about doing something like this. Writing a letter with my thoughts, this came to me as something that I would like to do. However, it didn't come to me right away when I had the idea because I was in the "that's so cool" interesting mode. I never thought about it more deeply but of course the one night I was reading my book and browsing that same site I came across it from, it hit me. It hit me more as I looked into it and what others had done. So here I was the one night thoroughly tired, exhausted yet trying to finish my book but took a break to browse online and boom it just started pouring out of me. All my thoughts and everything deep inside of me was coming out. I didn't finish this in that night, actually morning of course because it was already 2 am. I continued the next day and thoughts just kept pouring out even as I would leave it to go do something. I had been continuing to write thoughts for the last couple of days so that I could post this as soon as possible for you guys. I know this is very personal but it's something I want to share and I hope you enjoy this post and it is very long for a warning that are not interested in reading anything or were looking for photos. 

I hope you all have a lovely day and thank you truly for taking the time to read this if you manage to read all the way through. 
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(I have changed some of the wording in the sentence above because this is a re-edited version of this post. WHY? you may ask, because the way I have written it is not correct. It's not correct in the sense of how I have written it as "I WANT". When written that way it will always be "I WANT" it will never be in the now or won't come to you because it will always be in the future. It will always be in the "I WANT" and so I decided to come on here and change the way I have written this letter to make it be something that can come to fruition and be in the now in the way I have worded my words. As I write I will cross out the old stuff and put in the new wording. If you have read all those books like: the secret, you can heal your life, etc. it's all about being positive and changing your perspective. 'What You Give Out Comes Back To You' Changing your view. I had wanted to do this last year but I never bothered to change it. I just left it the way it was but today I was willing to finally come on here and change it.) I have strike through the old stuff and underline the new stuff. - Your thoughts create your life!

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dear future boyfriend. fiancé  husband.

i trust want you to know that i have been longing and waiting a very long time.. twenty-four years to be exact. i am have utterly anticipating for your arrival into my life and to sweep me off my feet. i can't wait to now share fun moments and moments of laughter along with love. i also cannot wait live for the silent moments when no one has to say anything. i think trust the most curious moments is the beauty within you, the whole of you from sadness, laughter, joy, anger, the flaws that define you, that make you who you are. the little things that you hold within and no one else knows. i want live those moments. i want live to share and hear everything from the not so greatness to the complete and utter buckled knees down in the ground in complete awe and unbelievable joy of life. i want live to experience your dreams that you have accomplished, want to accomplish and i want trust you to know how proud of you i am.


i want live to travel with you to a lot of beautiful amazing places as well as just sitting in the midst of each other's presence talking. i want live to go on cute little dates, you know like .. to the zoo, aquarium, a picnic with a blanket, food and a gorgeous field with beautiful flowers. i want live for an ice cream date and a trip to Hawaii together. i want live to experience life with you and i together in a space that is ours to call home. i want live to come home and hear how your day went. i want the live for heart melting good morning messages that leave a girl smiling like a floating balloon high in the air so high. i want to be am your friend first and foremost. then second your complete and soulful love. i want live to see your playful side, that ends up in cute fun laughter wrestling with each other playfully. i want live to hold your hands and make road trips and unplanned trips. i want have a bazillion photos of not only you but of us together. i want live to cuddle with you whenever. i want live to spend days together that are lazy and only require pj's with movies, books, food and conversation. i want live to leave you cute messages when you wake up, going to work, at work or away. i want live to cook together and eat ice cream under the warm sun. i want live to love you with all my heart that i possibly can. i want to can kiss you and have hurdles of butterflies always floating from the pit of my stomach. i want trust to capture your heart when i walk into a room and your eyes twinkle in awe. i want live to eat at each other's favorite places. i want have the smell of you invoked around me. i want trust to be that girl who can rock one of your shirts and look sexy doing it because i can't find anything in my closet. i want to can feel the sensation from your hugs climbing up my spine. i want turst our relationship to have dreams that are ours, together. i want live to walk in the rain and have deep conversations along with a million questions moments. i want live to have musical outbursts and random dancing moments. i want trust you to love my friends and i want trust to love yours. i want live for the uncontrollable laughter along with the sad and happy tears. i want live to give you unconditional love. i want live to be the reason your happy in life. i want can to see you chill out in sweats yet oh so sexy in jeans and a t-shirt and hot and heart melting to the pit of the floor in a suit/dressed up. i want live to kiss in the rain and sleep on a beach together. i want trust to tell you how i feel. i want give to spend Christmas in New York and new years eve. i want give to camp on the beach and have a bonfire. i want live to go on a coffee date and fly across to city lights. i want have a treasure that cannot be forgotten, i want have every moment written in my own very diary. i want have something to look back on. i want give to go to New York and California all in the same trip. i want give to experience the history of London with you. i want give to visit the beautiful country of Croatia together. i want live to lay there with you just thinking. i want to can feel your comfort. i want love bbq's. i want give to hear your favorite songs and see your favorite movies. i want trust that feeling of beauty to wash in. i want live to have stupid arguments every now and again that means nothing in the end. i want live to get photos done of us together by someone marvelous like matt clayton and meg courtney.. perhaps both! i want live for piggy backs and getting to wake up beside you.  i want have you to be passionate, ambitious and confident in everything you want in life. i want live to be in the grace of your intelligence, helpfulness and independence. i want live to listen to you speak and to hear your advice. i want live for fun and you to achieve your educational goals. i want live to go to the movies with you and watch anything and everything, especially romantic ones. i want live to go to a concert with you. i want live to enjoy the presence of your family. i want trust us to be positive towards each other and to allow each other to value one another's potential to grow along with love, fail and try again. i want to visit Australia with you. i want to be truly blessed and thankful for the amazing person that you are. i want you to push me beyond limits - out of the box limits. i want live to take day trips, surprise trips and no destination trips. i want live to stargaze in the back of your truck if you have one with blankets and pillows. i want live to have those moments that are full of laughter because i scared you and you get me back when i least expect it. i want give to go to six flags and Disney with you. i want trust you to be there for me and be okay with that i am okay. i want trust you to know that i am happy. i want trust my dreams to come true with you. i want give to go on double dates. 

i want live to experience your kindness, joy, love and care. i want live to witness the depths of your soul. in the midst of everything i want am to become your fiancee to then become your wife. i want am to marry my soul-mate and love of my life. i want live to dream up all the possibilities of married life. i want trust to share a home, oh so gorgeous and full of love. i want trust to have the most incredible children and them to have the most amazing father ever. i want have you to be full of joy with them. i want live to give you healthy children but as a deep desire also a beautiful son. a beautiful desired longing that i want trust to have in my life, with you in our home. i want live to have play dates with the friends we have that have children. i want live to go on vacations as a family. i want give to have a family and friends Disney gathering together. i want live to have fun. i want trust our family to be filled with so much love and warmth. i want trust our children to have amazing godparents. i want live to be able to watch our children get married too. i want live to hear the sweet words of mommy and daddy. i want trust to be the best parent and wife to you and our children. i want trust all your dreams be fulfilled. i want trust your support, love and most importantly the key ingredient communication. i want trust you to be successful on your own but as well as together as a family. i want have loyalty, honesty, patience and respect within our relationship and being able to give our children good examples of that from our relationship. i want trust our children to be exposed to well rounded people and enjoy tons of activties whether in school or out of school. i want live to experience every moment from them playing hockey to dance. i want have our dream home and a wrapped front porch with a swinging chair swing. i want have a swing or a tire swing hanging out of a tree. i want have a family room with just television and games. i want have each of our children to have their own room, decorated how they want. i want have our house full of warm colors, yet rich flooring. i want to can feel the sun's warm rays through the window as we are waking up in bed or just laying next to each other. i want trust our wedding to be lovely with gorgeous photos and a videographer. i want trust you to love our children no matter the circumstances that life throws at me. i want trust you to love our children unconditionally, no matter what. i want trust you to promise me that with your whole heart. i want trust you to be happy yourself and unconditionally loved. i want have you to be empathetic towards our children when they need it, yet also someone they look up to. i want live to watch our children grow up from elementary into junior high to high school and off to college/university. i want trust our children to have and find a beautiful love like ours with someone they care about and want to marry. i want live to go on walks and to the sand park with our children. i want to be am thankful for everything that comes in my life and ours. i want live to witness the giggling moments of our kids and there success. i want have lots of bear hugs and kisses from our children to the both of us. i want give to travel to Spain and or Brazil with you. 

i am always pondering thoughts in my mind and as well with my beautiful friend. i especially love sharing our stargazing life moments with each other because we both want the same thing. even though she has a boyfriend i cannot trust to wait until i get to feel all the things i expressed to her until my time with you comes. i cannot wait until have you to meet her because she is an amazing part of my life.  i want trust my really good friend to be apart of this beautiful love story at my wedding as my maid of honor. i want trust you to like her as much as i do. i want trust you to be good friends with her husband. i want have her to actually be one of our children's godparent. i know i am pushing my boundaries by putting this out there but i have been thinking about it a lot and i really would like that. i want trust our children to be really good friends and have a good rounded connection of good people. i want live for our children to have sleep overs at each other's houses. i want come to watch her children for her well they go on a date night. i want live for our families to have trips together and double dates. i want trust to be unbelievable friends for ever and ever and ever. i want trust her to be apart of our life of being friends. 

i want am this kind of love. i want am our kind of love. 

for my close friends: on new years

Sunday Morning Love!

I wanted to come on here and share what I had written to my very close friends for New Years this year. I also wrote 
something last year as well for those I were close with and the year before, but as years progress the friends one has are no longer your friends. As you move on in life and finding yourself out you begin to truly see who your close friends are or you make friendships deeper with people that weren't so deep that become really super close friends with you. My point is what I wrote to them I wanted to share it on here. If I knew what I had written last year I would have documented that here as well but I don't have that piece of writing. I attached at the bottom of this what they said back to what I wrote with their initials of their name for those that may be curious. :D 

Happy New Years to You!
The one who makes My heart Sparkle,
makes My laugh shine and makes My eyes smile.

Thanks for being in my life this past year and always there for me.
I'm glad to have you in my life for 2013!

I wish you all the magic and luck this new year!

I believe in all your dreams, ambitions and adventures to come
that I hope they all come true in 2013. I believe in you, the individual
that you're and respect your integrity. 

Most of all, I love you in my life and overall because you INSPIRE me
to the utmost, beyond potential. You let magic see sparkle in my eyes.
You make me believe in the unbelievable, the impossible, the unattainable.
You make me believe and know that dreams can come true. You make my life
that more grand and happier to the fullest like New York City Sparkle.

I want to thank you truly from the bottom of my heart for all of the following
this year; Thank you for the opportunities you've given me, the love, the promises
you've kept for me. Thank you for the adventures, challenges and for being there in
time of struggles. Thank you for you're courage, joy and your beauty in the simple yet
small things. Thank you for the laughter, uncontrollable laughter and tears in eyes
laughter. Thank you for your time, wisdom, patience and kindness. Thank you for
your unconditional support, open ears and open heart. Thank you for your understanding
and for being my friend. Thank you for your advice, the pure advice that isn't sugar coated 
but is from the deepest meaningful part of your heart and soul. Thank you for letting your
heart shine, so that mine can shine too. Thank you for watching out for the best interest of me.
Thank you for being an INSPIRATION & BELIEF. Thank you for living your life to your fullest potential
so I can watch you grow, make mistakes, love, be human, flawed but mostly so I can have living proof
of what amazing-ness looks like. Thank you for your character and being the best example of goodness
that you possibly can be in my life. Thank you ultimately for the truth, being fearless and having faith
in me always, no matter what. '3

All the best this New Year and for continuing to be apart of my life this New Year! '3

Love,
Me. star

Responses from my friends

- c . Awww that made me tear up!!! (tear emotions x5) thank you, Joelynn!!! heart x3 + blush face + super happys + blush face)
- t . Thank you for the wonderful message :) I needed it.  
- j . Thank you so much for your new years text.. it was soooo nice! Thank you :) you're the best
- n . Oh my lord jobo (my nickname) that was beautiful! I obviously cant write that much and I know that you know how much I love you even though I tease you but remember that Ill always have your back no matter what! love n! happy new year my love '3

this is my year

Hello!

I wanted to come on here to write and just write because I have a lot of thoughts on a lot of things lately. I believe this post will be everything laid out on here that's from my mind, soul and specifically from the bottom of my heart pondering or dwelling. 

I know I didn't come on here much last year (2012) and I didn't do much outfit posts or stuff. It's actually been hard to, because I never felt the motivation to or I never knew what to blog. Sometimes I would want to blog about stuff and then I'm like umm.. better not, that's too out there. It's too much vulnerability but at the same time this blog is mine and is suppose to be about me and whatever my little heart wants to write about or desires. However, I am having a hard time with that.. it's like being on edge wanting to put in all these things yet it's so much to throw at you once. Mostly on my part it's a risk, a risk that I am not exactly sure if I want to do or how to go about it. Yet at the same time I know it will help someone in some way possible, so I would like to think..

There is so much I want to do with this blog or change. My idea or way of thinking was this was going to be a blog with fashion outfits, but it hasn't been that at all. It's been a lot of writing, because that is who I am. I like to write, no love to write when I can or have the chance or just because I want to since I feel a little light in my heart wanting to speak. I feel my blog is not going where I want it or what I want it to be at all. I keep thinking of all these different things I need to do for this blog but for myself to make it become what I want it to become. I want this blog to be about everything, every little thing of life. I can't stay to specifics like my blog url and to be honest it bugs me because I don't feel my blog is what the url portrays. 

I also know that some of the readership as declined even though it is not that big but I know that obviously shows I am not doing enough blogging, it's not interesting, lacking photos or just not what you the reader were hoping to view. I want to change that. I want to change that because trying to blog because I need to because I haven't isn't making my blog be successful in the way I feel in my heart. And when I mean successful  I don't mean by how many people subscribe or how comment. I mean successful in how much I really want it, how much I really am willing to put in the effort to make it become the very space and thing that I want. 

I read a lot of blogs, I love a lot of different bloggers. I read bloggers who have kids, who are married, who are in relationships or are single or write about God. I read a lot of different aspects because I am open minded and my heart can use different perspectives of life, adventures, of simply the simple little things that mean the most. Those blogs that I read are amazing, incredible and they inspire me in different forms. However, my feeling and ambition is that I want to INSPIRE people. I want to inspire you the read with what I have to say. I want you to achieve the things that you want to achieve because their is something that I said or wrote about on here that inspired you to take action to achieve the very thing you want. It doesn't matter how big or small the thing you want to achieve is, I want you to feel ambitious. possible. achievable. attainable. that dreams do come true when you do everything possible to make them happen! 

The one thing I do want to do for this blog, for myself is to re-evaluate it all round: design wise, topics, photos, every little thing I can do to make a change to make this be more lively and fresh. This is a place I want to come to write because I want to share and I am proud. I am not shy, but I am taking a huge risk. I want to define it but not to a specific one topic like fashion because that is hard for me to do. 

I know also you the readers make the blog successful by reading it and always coming back to see a new post. I of course love your feedback and read all your comments and try to reply back right away. However, I admittedly admit I do not reply back right away but I do read them and get back to you. One thing that I would like to know is your guys input on my blog because you are reading it but I am sure you have your opinion or thoughts as to what you want to see from this blog or what it lacks in your judgement. I will be gladly to interrupt everything into what this year will hold and how I am going to go about this blog. If you want more photos or more writing or more personal things or more outfit posts. I would love your feedback in that aspect to help with the whole process. I know also another thing such as writing a post at least 2 or 3 times a week. Maybe you guys want a serious Q&A with questions that you have asked and want me to answer. Perhaps you want a giveaway, whatever it may be let me know. 

I want 2013 to be my year. I want it to be my way to success because I gave my self that 110% effort. I tried and made it work. I failed and know I have done everything to make it work that it's time to move on or wasn't meant to be. I want to be motivated for a lot of things and this blog is part of it. I know I took or have taken hiatus on this blog numerous times with mention or without because life or just because or for a blog makeover. I think this time I really need to really sit down think about every aspect of this blog and everything I want to put into this and understand better what works or what doesn't for me and this blog. I need time to do this, to figure this out properly to be focused. There are things that I don't want on here anymore or want to eliminate but will keep on here as this blog grows, renews, refreshes and achieves the greatest that is in my eyes that lets this blog breathe. I want this to work out truly not just kind of want it even though that is what it looks like since I've started blogging but this is something I really want to be amazing, full of love, life, experiences and  an opportunity to achieve a dream. A DREAM you're probably like a dream? Really if you think about it from my eyes, it is a dream because with every detail and idea in my mind and soul that wants to achieve the greatness in my heart that's a dream for me to want to achieve. 

The very thing that this all comes down to and to make this year be my year is to have HEART. The very thing that I know will make me be and feel successful in my ambitions. When you have HEART you wouldn't be able to quit, to give up, or have a reason to complain. Everyone struggles in life in different forms, situations but it is only something temporary. You can change You and the opportunities that come to you by changing the things that you can. There is always the next level in life and that's to be positive. believe. etc. and those are what you have read on my blog these past years but this year my word, my feature of this blog is going to be heart. It isn't going to be easy, this I know and I am not asking it to be but if you want something you need to breathe it, eat it, sleep it, and believe it. You ultimately have to have HEART. 

So for this blog this year, 2013 .. I want it to have heart and be about heart. I want you to feel me, the blogger, the person that I am. I want you to read this blog because you want to or you get excited because there is something new on here to read. I want to put myself on the line of risk and be vulnerable. I want to show, be and give. I want to have HEART.

 I wanted to come on here to express this and my blog. My desires of this year with this blog which is probably kind of vague at the moment, but I don't have it figured out yet, so there is no way in which I can relate these ideas to you when I myself need to figure it out. I do hope for a lovely 2013 and for your input that I can mix in to better understand what lacks for you guys. 

Happy January 4th.
Happy Friday!

Thank You again.