Wednesday, August 28, 2013

grateful / thankful wednesdays

Hey Daisy Blossom's!

It's Wednesday and possibly this post or if not this Friday's will be the last for a wee little bit until I move and get settled in. And no I don't have any pre-scheduled posts for you guys, which I am sorry for that but I have been getting things together. On Tuesday was my last day of work also, so not a whole lot of time to make up posts before hand. I know I missed Monday, sorry again, but I hope you understand. This is a first-time thing, so it's pretty interesting to say the least with a lot of last minute errands, people to see and last minute things to get together. I have a quick hour to do this post before I am heading off to do something else again. I wanted to put this out there, in case anyone doesn't see anything posted from me for a while. ;)

Here is today's Wednesday post for you all! :) 


1. I am so grateful for all the love this past two weeks, but even more so this week because I know there are a lot who truly want me to be happy and have a good experience.
2. I am truly blessed for everything coming together and aligning because I know the universe wants this to happen for me.
3.  With all my heart, thank you for allowing one last visit, one last time with each of my core four before I head off because I know they're so supportive, encouraging and always share their best advice. 
4. I am truly grateful for technology, because it provides so many access ways to communicating.
5. With all my heart, thank you for all the support, love and interesting in the things I want to accomplish in my life because I know a lot people don't go after the very thing they want. 
6. I am truly blessed to have a place to live while in school and being able to make it my own space for the time that I am there, because that will be my place to eat, sleep, study, communicate along with watch my shows. 
7. I am so grateful for the new experiences, new people, new life, new challenges, new atmosphere, new chapter, new room, new friends, new opportunities, new learning experience, all new everything because I know this journey is going to be an amazing journey that I will get to share with my close friends back home but also I get to live, share, give my wisdom to someone or inspire someone.
8. I am truly grateful for all the amazing things in life such as water, food, electricity, heat, air conditioning, air because being able to have all those makes life amazing.
9. With all my heart, thank you for the little ones in my life and the littlest one going to come very soon before Christmas because I know they're smart, kind, beautiful, intelligent souls with an incredible future ahead of them.
10. I am so grateful for possibility of becoming and being open, because I know people can notice a difference in energy and I know this has helped me for the new adventure going to take place now. 

Happy Wednesday!



Signed, Joe

Friday, August 23, 2013

life is all about moments of impact

Hey Daisy Blossom's!



It's Friday and time to write whatever this little heart desires for today's journal Friday! First to start off this post, the jam I was listening to while writing this is summertime sadness by Lana Del Rey. It is sad in the sense that everything is pretty much over, done and becoming a new chapter. A new beginning, like a new season and the fall gets the lucky chance to start off the new adventure, experiences and everything else that is going to come about to happen. It is going to end with the spring, the essence of new life, fresh beginnings which will be of summertime break all the way up until August. I will get four glorious months to spend as much and TONS of time with the amazing people that I wouldn't have the opportunity to see for the next couple of months. Yes, I get some days off but very few when you're in the big leagues of things. These very last couple of days left that I have [exactly a week] will be the defining moments. Those moments will make the hugest impact for sure! It's going to be mind-blowing insane. It will come with a ton of new adjustments, which I am not totally sure of right at this moment. In the grand scheme of things in the beginning it sounds amazing and all these ideas come into your head, but when it comes to the actually time.. it's a roller coaster of emotions and thoughts. "If your dreams don't scare you they're not big enough" correct?! However, at the moment lately everyone asks how I am and to be honest I am really more anxious wanting the first day to get here while at the same time to be gone. Yet, I say that however the thought of taking it all in really matters also. This is only going to happen once and most likely something I will remember for the longest of times or maybe I won't really remember to look that far back.. who knows?! Life likes to give you experiences when you least expect them to come into your life. I am unsure of the whole picture as to the move to the first day of orientation. Past those and go into the school work I think I will be fine, more than fine. I will be great, because great things are possible if you want them to happen. I think the thing that makes me the most nervous is not having the known, the familiarity, a safe haven in the sense of just calling up my friends to hangout whenever and talk upon hours. I know that aspect isn't only affecting just myself. I know the feeling along with the thought is mutual and spring will be here in no time again. The safe haven that I have known for twenty-five years is now drastically changing. I know a lot people are happy for me, knowing everything is going to go good and work out. I myself am not so sure at all what to expect to be honest; I think about the homesickness. I am guilty of it throughout different occasions in my life. I hope I can push through it or maybe I am psyching myself out and everything will flow fine. I know so far God has allowed amazing opportunities to come into my life. And I am sure he will continue to provide a great magnificent guidance on this journey and I know there is a guardian surrounding me. I am very definite and sure it is the pure love my grandpa. I know everything will work out plus go well because with God he will make anything possible. e'll love unconditionally and he will always be there no matter what. I am just hoping I survive the first couple days so far but even more so the month. If I make it to thanksgiving I know I can pass through the rest until Christmas break. I know anything is possible. I know this ... God knows what you're capable of. God can see the seeds of great he's placed in you. 

Happy Friday!
+
Happy Weekend!

Signed, Joe

Wednesday, August 21, 2013

grateful-thankful wednesdays

Hey Daisy Blossom's!
& Happy Hump Day!




1. With all my heart, thank you for bringing a beautiful friend into my life, because I got the coolest opportunity to be even more apart of not only her life but her littlest one coming very soon. 
2. I am truly grateful for all the help, gifts, love, feedback and everything in between  because I know those that truly care didn't have to do any of that but did because they care and are so full of genuine love.
3. I am truly blessed feeling more open then ever before, because it's such a freeing feeling to not hold onto things within.
4. I am so grateful for the final few days left of quality time with friends, because I know I won't have the simple luxury to hangout whenever, so I appreciate this time very much.
5.  I am truly grateful for being able to talk about things that I never would have said in a million years, because I allow myself to be vulnerable when I could easily still be the same person that is numb to everything.
6. With all my heart, thank you for all the unconditional love and support from my close core four friends, because I know they truly want great things to happen.
7. I am truly blessed for God, because of him I have had so many amazing blessings over the last couple months and I am so honestly grateful with all my heart.
8. With all my heart, thank you for the clarity that I have when writing in my journal, because now it comes with ease and without troubles. 
9. I am truly blessed for all the food that I have the pleasure to enjoy and eat, because there are people who can't afford to eat. 
10. I am truly grateful for all the connections I have been in contact with over the past little while over summer, because I learn something new or am given a chance to contact them if I need any help with anything even if I only have meet them for the first time. 


Signed, Joe

Monday, August 19, 2013

stuff animals, cool clothes, a too cute of a blanket for a sweet little boy

Hey Monday! & Hey Daisy Blossom's!


For today's post I wanted to share two items I purchased off of etsy as part of a gift for a dear friend! Oh and this is probably an unusually post in the sense that I have no kids of my own at all. However, I love kids and they make me happy! What makes me even more happy is getting to shop for kids, like my nieces or cousins along with friends. I just enjoy it and spoiling them tons! The point to this is one of my close friends is pregnant and having a baby boy!! [My dream.. if you don't know that already!] Oh and it's my dream because in my family there is all girls but also because I've always wanted to have an older brother when I was little. Plus, I want to be the one to change that in the near future when my time comes! Ha! [My mom.. no keep it all girls, no I want to be the one to mix it up in here! Haha!!] Besides the point.. I am just so excited for her!! Since I am going to be away when the little one arrives I made my gift to her early! 

The blanket I bought from b_savy crochet which I found out about from CaraLoren and started following her on instagram where she posted some different blanket designs and I had to get one! I got the heart one and I got it custom to the colors I wanted but also to be striped, because I thought it would look so cool! If you wanted to get a blanket, check her out and her other blanket designs because they're totally awesome patterns for your little ones to rock!


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The cool diaper bag I got custom designed with the fabric I wanted, which there is a million ones to choose from, here. The theme I went with was raccoon's, because I just loved them this summer from the stuff animals at the summer rides where there is games and such. The exact one I wanted my friend had gone back with her adorable momma and won one. So it worked out perfect I chose the raccoon theme! The bag is from the etsy shop Brownie Gifts. It was quick how fast she made it and arrived to me. I was very pleased with it overall that I would order another one for a future someone in my life that happens to be pregnant! I had found this randomly searching etsy because I wanted to give my friend a cool bag that was different and unique! This one wasn't recommended or seen on another bloggers page. 






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As for the rest of the things in the bag I put in there for her was a bunch of clothes which came from Oshkosh Carter and some pacifiers since there is a strap inside the bag to hang it on. The teddy bear is from Oshkosh Carter, the Kola bear that rattles is from Gymboree.




 
I gave her the gift Saturday and she was shocked! She was like holy smokes there is so much stuff in here! And the best thing happened once I was at home later she asked me to be the godmother for her baby.. awe!! I am now godmother to 3, being my two nieces and now my friends little soon to be coming one. So sweet!! It's amazing because she could have pick anybody and it was me. I am very grateful along with blessed! God just has so many blessing beyond what I could imagine in my wildest dreams. I am truly grateful with all my heart. 

And yeah I think that is it. If there is anything else you would like to know leave a comment or shoot me an email! 

Have a happy monday
& hope you find something lovely!  


Signed, Joe

Friday, August 16, 2013

something great will come of it ..

20 seconds of insane courage.. the exact quote that made me want to challenge myself on something personal came Wednesday morning. It was all because an entry I just started expressing in my journal that morning. There's this little thing that has been on auto repeat in my head about "sometimes in life you lack confidence in yourself" I have no idea why it all of a sudden has decided to swarm my brain and take precedent place. However, at the same time I feel this not awkwardness but this bubble that want's to get burst but it's floating in air waiting. I feel as though I have had those times in the past [for example] I have liked someone and never did anything about it because I never thought they would talk to me anyways. I didn't bother because I thought they would be like why the hell are you talking to me. I think the thing that hit hardest home over the years hearing from someone that I am no longer in contact with is "you'll never be the girl who walks into a room and grabs a guy attention" I am not even going to lie one bit, that stung and I most likely may have mentioned this before on here, somewhere in a past post but it did. It's like telling someone they will never make it, they will fail or their idea is stupid. The other thing was that I would never give the time of day to someone say [insert stereotype] nerd if they came up to you. You have to high of standards and would by pass them and not even give them a chance, because they wouldn't be intellect a enough for you. The truth.. to get real there does have to be a physical attract of course when liking someone. However, when it comes to helping someone that isn't even on the tables of my mind to be honest.  Also I have had many types of people come up to me and asking me to help them in many different kinds of ways and I've never been [sorry my language] an asshole about it. It's usually people take advantage and also because I have taught that that was okay to do. [That is a whole other blog post on that to talk about] but it's true and I never realized it until it got confronted to me. Besides these little details, which I am kind of straying off track but from all the past examples of situations I have encountered I feel more stronger than before. If I look at past opportunities that were given to me, I did nothing about them ever. I always let it sit there and I had a ton of time to get the courage to confront it but never allowed myself to because I was scared, thought I wasn't that good enough, low self-esteem and why would someone like me anyways. It's a funny thing as life moves on and you learn a little more, a bit more, a whole lot more about yourself and the possibilities you can take charge of that you let slide away a million other times before. When sitting here thinking about it today, there has been multiple times I have wanted something sort of kind of bad before and it never happened. However, when I wouldn't be looking it would arrive and there has been times it's been in my hands and I didn't allow myself to do anything about it even if there was something or someone on the other end that wanted it to work out for me or make it work. I never allowed myself to have the luck come in my favor and that also was because I didn't believe it was something I could have. It was something to good to be true or to good for me; I wasn't enough. And as sad as that may sound that was my confidence back then lack thereof. I am not some person that is going to tell you or sell you on that I changed myself within a week, because that would be a complete lie. Yes, tiny little things would happen, that would make progress and steps towards me moving forward in my life but to the confidence and self-esteem I have of myself now took me a whole three wholes to understand. It's not just one incident, one thing that made it happened.. there were numerous things in my life that caused me to be in the state that I was. It was to the point of negativity, nothing worked out for me ever, but simply not believing yet also getting super angry about everything and making myself suffer for no apparent reason. I feel almost I have one last thing to plunge into and do. I feel as though I have a moment this time that has made me realize things I never truly did before. I kind of want to master this inner challenge and kick it in the butt. Yet, at the same time it seems crazy and doesn't make any sense to do because I am leaving so to pursue a move on an opportunity when you're leaving but then I cannot see the outcome to know what would come about. I mean come on 20 seconds of crazy insane courage is all I need right?! ... I think I will feel defeated a bit this time around because it won't feel like a growth in any aspect even though I have been faced with a similar incident before. [Even I don't bother to do anything at all] It's like standing in the same spot and not making a move, just being there.. doing nothing.. risking nothing... being the exact same. Boring.. I feel with knowing this information something possibly amazing could happen. It doesn't hurt to ask anybody anything.. if you never ask the answer is always no and if you never try it's always going to be no. The worst possible scenario that could take place is a no and more than likely as I have come across when I have asked it has been less likely to hear that because I asked instead of not bothering to at all. I feel like I have experienced this little hurdle numerous different times throughout my twenty-five years of life and was just at a stand-still in the past. I don't even know if really it would be a hurdle because it's not weighing a ton on me that I don't know what to do. It's one of those things that is there and comes when it wants to you.. you know it's there right in front but do nothing yet expect something however receive nothing in the end of it all. I feel the crazy thoughts that happen in the head can get the best of you if you let them and I know all about that too. The one thing I am aware of and do know is that this happens at very unlikely, random moments. [You know those moments that you're like what the double h hockey sticks that was so left field even if you're struggling or doing semi-good or just in the worst shittiest place ever, so you feel.] And for those wondering more into my thought or I guess I should say feelings.. it's not one of those things that involves the sensation of butterflies or anything of that nature. It's more an inner challenge within inside of me being fully aware, a lot more confident than in my past and something I feel I need to pursue in a way to break down an inner barrier if you want to call it that in which I have never allowed myself to risk for. 

My inner feelings this time is I want to believe the outcome of something amazing will happen. I feel I believe it more possibly than anything I thought from past situations. I won't lie there is this tiny little thinking thought process of someone looking in that's standing out on the outskirts trying to understanding the whole of everything because I get it.. 
i dream big
i aim high
i do everything with a passion from within the inner core of me and I feel that can be a scary thing as well. [in the sense that being so passionate that it can't be reciprocated back in some way]

However.. 

i kind of believe in a little miracle of something great will happen.. 
And I understand everything can't happen at once but also that sometimes it can, wants to and simply just does

All it takes is 20 seconds. 20 seconds of bravery that may be quiet or rattling insane but something beautiful and amazing is possible to happen. 

20 seconds of bravery, a miracle of pure genius heart.

20 seconds of a glorious me, a glorious you and all the glory you allow yourself to feel and stand within. 

20 seconds, 20 seconds of pure completely honest beauty

[With all my heart thank you for the ability to be courageous and take a step forward out of the shallow water to go into the deep end to break the barrier, because I know sometimes in life something is right in front of me and I lack the confidence to pursue it, so thank you.] 

So go achieve your 20 seconds of insane courage.. get your something great out of it. 

Happy Friday,
Happy Love
Happy courageous bravery
& Happy Weekend! ;) 

Signed, Joe

Wednesday, August 14, 2013

grateful-thankful wednesdays

Hello Daisy Blossom's!
& Happy Wednesday! :)



1. I am truly grateful for the friends that care so much about me, because they are always there to listen and help me out any way they can.
2. With all my heart, thank you for the ability to feel a full heart of passion in everything that I do, because it rounds the person I am everyday. 
3. I am so grateful for the opportunities I have received at the newest job I got back in May and leaving for a couple months while away for school, because everything happens for a reason even beyond things I could even see. 
4. I am truly blessed to be surrounded by grateful people who appreciate things and life, because I know the smallest things at the end of the day mean the most. 
5. I am truly grateful for books and the knowledge they can provide or the things that can stimulate your imagination, because books have the ability to show you and express things you never really thought of fully. 
6. I am so grateful to have a bed to sleep on, because I am fortunate enough to have a good sleep.
7. With all my heart, thank you for the ability of going out of my comfort zone even though I have no idea what is in store for me. 
8. I am truly blessed for the beautiful warm sun, because it makes the day so bright and cheery. 
9. With all my heart, thank you for life, love, passion, dreams, risks and vulnerability because each one of those aspects shape my life to what I want to make of it. 
10. With all my heart, thank you for the ability to be courageous and take a step forward out of the shallow water to go into the deep end to break the barrier, because I know sometimes in life something is right in front of me and I lack the confidence to pursue it, so thank you. 

Signed, Joe

Monday, August 12, 2013

a whole lot of WHOA!

Hello Daisy Blossom's!

I wanted to come on here today to share my fall whoa's that I've seen and like... and who are we kidding want for my closet! I hope you enjoy today's post and have a lovely, happy Monday! :) 



1. Faux Leather and Nylon Bomber Jacket 
2. High Low Striped Heart Tee
3. Aerie Pretty Pajama Pant
4. Marte Frisnes Jewellery Love Disc Bracelet
5. Mowgli Surf Snapback Cap
6. Aerie Printed Loop Scarf 
7. AE NYC Favorite T-Shirt 
8. AE Denim Vested Hoodie
9. Aerie Softest Sleep Racerback Bralette



Signed, Joe

Wednesday, August 7, 2013

grateful-thankful wednesdays

Hello Daisy Blossom's!





I know I haven't been posting as regularly for Monday or Friday but that is because I have a lot going on with moving and working at the same time. I am a very busy bee as well as trying to figure out time to hangout with people has been challenging also with schedules not being the same and what not. So if you don't see regularity this month this is why and if there isn't a whole lot next month either, it is because I am getting into the groove of a routine as well as a new environment, so bare with me during this month and next. If I haven't done the Monday/Friday 's post but Wednesdays is going through regularly it's because I have the time to actually get this done and really it's a simple task to be honest. I wanted to say this little piece before I get into todays post but I hope you are all having a lovely Wednesday!

1. With all my heart, thank you for tonight because the little gathering of dinner, conversation and being around lovely people plus tons of laughter until water eyes happen from laughing so much is a genuine sparkle of light.
2. I am truly blessed for all the amazing people God has allowed to be apart of my life this far, because so many little things have happened that really are the big moments. 
3. I am truly grateful for the outcome of everything that has happened to me these past couple of months, because God had a much more bigger plan than I could have witnessed on my own.
4. I am so grateful for the people who truly care, because I know that they will always help me and listen to what I have to say no matter what or help any way they can.
5. With all my heart, thank you for all the experiences I have had in my hometown I was born in, because now I have the chance to experience something new, make mistakes and figure out a lot of things on my own.
6. With all my heart, thank you for this month and the time that I get to spend with people, because it feels lovely to be able to spend quality time. 
7. I am truly blessed for the next couple of weeks and what is going to take place, because I know the experiences to come will be full treasures and full of gratefulness. 
8. I am so grateful for all the wonderful blessings in my life, because life is beautiful and full of magic if you allow yourself the ability to see it along with feel it. 
9. I am truly grateful for my really close friend Cristina, because we are on the same wave length but a whole other level higher that it's just so ridiculously awesome how much goodness a friendship like this is as well worth so much more than anything money can buy. 
10. With all my heart, thank you for my family whether they're close, far away, or immediate because I care so much for them and will be there for them no matter what is going on. 



Signed, Joe